Same date...different times

It looks like I'm posting a blog on the same day but in fact I'm not. I stayed up really late last night so that's why my two blog entries have the same date.

I've decided to pray once again however, I missed my Zuhr prayer. No matter. I will do Asr on time. I hope I get into the rhythm of praying once again. The best times of my life occurred when I was praying so I hope that I can enter into a new chapter in my life through prayer.

I've been thinking about the earthquake in Pakistan and how miserable it makes me feel. I wish I was a doctor so I could go over there and offer my services. Insha'allah, one day I will be a doctor one day and when such things happen I can go to affected places and make a difference. Many right wingers relish the fact that this earthquake has hit Muslim areas especially after Katrina hit and many were saying the U.S. is being punished. All I can say is that I'm sure one day those people will taste the punishment for making light of peoples' suffering.

Religious people look on these disasters as punishment. Maybe it is punishment, but in the vast majority of cases its the poor and downtrodden who are affected. Their lives are hard as it is and an earthquake just tips things over the edge. It's not the corrupt politicians or warlords that get affected, it's the poor people on the ground that end up getting killed or watching loved ones die. The rich and powerful always have the means to escape or avoid hardship, yet people like to chalk up these natural disasters as punishment suggesting that they are superior in some way and have avoided this punishment.

I see these disasters as tests for humankind to respond. When you see these disasters do you just sit on your ass or do you do something about it? I have a friend who just finished medical school who is going to Kashmir to help. I have so much respect for him and I wonder if I got into medical school, if I would do the same thing. The old me would probably make up some retarded excuse or my trophy wife/girlfriend would convince me to just donate money and forget about it. The new me would probably go.

This is going to sound incredibly sexist but women are cowards. They take the easiest route. They try to dissuade men from doing brave things. If I listened to my mother, I would have never fasted and never experienced the sweetness of Ramadan. Women like to play things by the book and they are so status quo, that's why they rarely amount to anything. They're not willing to go against the grain, even if going against the grain is the right thing to do. Of course, there are exceptions to the rule....but on the whole I think I'm correct. My ex-girlfriend...lets call her Lingling(she's asian)...was like that too. She hated hardship and would always take the easiest path. When things got rough for me, she left in a heartbeat, but I know that if things go right, she'll be there trying to reap the fruits. I mean she's trying to exploit me to get a place for her.

Is that how women are? Are they only there for the good times and away for the bad times? I think it's a reflection of some women. I do believe there are righteous women out there who stand by their man. I hope I can find one some day. I'm sure it will most likely be a Muslim woman, because Muslim women are the best.
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Some background about where I'm living right now. I'm living with an Orthodox Jewish guy and a Jewish girl who used to be my friends girlfriend and who is also a good friend of mine. She's one of those Jews that follows her religion but doesn't really believe it. That actually disgusts me when I think about it. What's the point of following a religion if you don't believe in God? She's very pretty, smart and her parents are well off, so it's not surprising she's a non-believer. People with worldly possessions and advantages are usually ungrateful of what God has given them.

She started going out with this guy right after she broke up with my friend and I honestly, hate her for that. My friend....let's call him Dale Cornsmith.... is someone I hold dear to my heart who I think quite highly of....for a kafir. She's starting to realize that this new guy she's with is a heartless loser so she wants to break up with him. She's really upset about it but I can't bring myself to feel sorry for her. I frankly think she deserves it. She deserves it for not believing God despite all that she has and for dumping my friend and finding comfort with another so quickly.